At the start of this journey, we were warned that tears might be involved in the process of creating our 3D models.
Since then, I have spent a whole week taking pictures, selecting them, changing their format, creating more than a hundred masks, re-taking pictures, creating even more masks. Then, when that part was done, I tried again and again to merge different parts of my model together. Slowly losing my sanity, I watched as my figurine developed an ingrown ear or became a sphere made of two heads.
I can now say that tears seem perfectly fitting to the creation of this project.
I have not felt like this during the whole process. Taking pictures, setting the light box and the camera was fun. Even if I had to start over because I had missed some angles, my mistake there was clear and although time consuming, it was easy to fix. The masks were extremely time consuming but also repetitive and not too challenging. I used those hours to listen to music or call my family and friends as I was working.
Merging my two dense clouds was the most nerve-wracking part of the process. Mainly because when something went wrong, it was hard to understand why. This made it difficult to improve. Fortunately, by then, I was familiar with Metashape and knew my way around the different tools. Hence, I was more comfortable trying out different things with my model. I ended up cutting out any part of my second dense cloud that I did not need to fill in the missing parts of the first one. This allowed my final model to have no weird overlap in certain sections and no second pair of ears.
Here is an overview of my thoughts during the process of merging my clouds together in the form of the renaming of my different attempts. This illustrates the type of learning curve you should expect when building a 3D model for the first time.
When my final attempt at merging worked I felt really excited and when the texture of the model was done, I jumped out of my seat. I was proud, of course, but honestly, I was also glad that this was over.
So here is my model, it is not perfect but it is mine.
Anime figurine 3D model by Leia Bonjean. Available here.
In 2014, Dr. Matt Taylor, a scientist from the European Space Agency who was part of the Rosetta Mission caused an outrage also known on social media as #Shirtgate. He appeared on “BBC Breakfast” and a European Space Agency live stream to give an update on the mission while wearing a bowling shirt with a print of various women wearing skintight outfits and with guns in their hands.
And with that, Dr. Taylor became the scapegoat on the diatribe about sexism, women in science and inappropriate attires. This controversy sparked many discussions and debates from feminist groups. Some of the reactions on Twitter went on like this:
One small shirt for a man, one giant sexist remark for mankind #shirtgate #CometLanding
Andrea Ayres Deets @missafayres Nov. 12:
As a result, Dr. Taylor issued a public apology in which he teared up and showed regret for what he had done but that did not end it.The discussion provoked by his shirt became so heated that he was linked to the #GamerGate thread and even Boris Johnson, which at the time was London’s mayor, got involved and stood for him via a column in The Sunday Telegraph.
This blogpost discusses the controversy from a feminist perspective. Feminism here refers to a broad social movement fighting for equality between genders and against discrimination on the basis of gender.
As outrage over Dr. Taylor’s shirt ensued, there were also people coming to his defense. One major argument was that the shirt was made by a friend of Taylor’s, a woman named Elly Prizeman, who gave him the shirt as a birthday gift. She also came to his defense, explaining that she thought Dr. Taylor was being nice by wearing it in public. However, there were also other people coming to his defense who were not as close to the situation. These people’s arguments could be summarised as what is called “adorkable misogyny“: when men are able to get away with “a wide range of creepy, entitled, and downright sexist behaviors” because they seem to unintentionally misread social codes and practices. The fact that the man appears as stereotypical masculinity but also kind of dorky can excuse his behaviour, for some people. The audience perceives these actions as less harmful.
Assuming Dr. Taylor did not wear this shirt purposely to objectify women on an international platform the question arises: Does unintentionality count as an excuse? Do we excuse him wearing a shirt with almost naked women on public television, because a woman gifted it to him or because he has a wife and two children?
There are certain sexist habits which many men still incorporate into their everyday life without even noticing it. They maybe also don’t mean any harm but after all: they, (un)intentionally, put themselves above women. This starts with simple phrases like “boys will be boys”. A comment which is often made after a man does something that is normally not acceptable but because he is “a boy”, implementing that this is just his nature, it is excused by society. A possible scenario for that would be catcalling a woman on the street. Maybe the catcaller really just wanted to compliment the woman but this act of calling out a woman on the street can make her feel very uncomfortable or even unsafe. In society we know that this is not acceptable, but it might be excused by a group of men, excusing this behavior because eventually “boys will be boys”.
Unintentional or not, behavior like this is not acceptable and should not be easily excused with phrases or tropes.
Unintentionality and the individual fate of Dr Taylor is not the main issue in the end. The importance of the shirtstorm controversy derives from the context in which the Doctor wore the shirt. In the end, it is about a white man from a powerful institution (the European Space Agency), from a scientific field that has little representation of women, wearing the shirt while on the BBC.
The issue here is an issue of power and representation. Feminism stands for an equal repartition of power across gender (but also race and class). Hence, this demands from people in positions like Dr Taylor’s to be conscious of their power and act accordingly. Simply because their actions can have important consequences and reinforce existing power imbalances. A lead scientist from the European Space Agency wearing a shirt with practically nude depictions of women on television is not exactly encouraging for more young women to pursue scientific careers, for example.
Like the Spiderman principle states, with great power comes great responsibility. And hopefully, Dr Taylor realises this now.
